It's bloody snowing!
For the love! It is the freakin middle of April and it's snowing! It's not that I hate the snow, oh wait I do hate the snow. I know it will all be melted by tomorrow night and it will all be fine. I just need to vent and my dogs are most definitely not the listening ears I need right now.
There's this feeling I have had right before all the biggest (bad) events in my life have happened. I can't describe the feeling it's just that I have it. Like when I was in jr. high and I broke my finger on a missions trip. About two or three days leading up to that day I had this weird feeling. And when my aunt Lisa died in 2001 I had the feeling for at least a few weeks before hand.
I'm experiencing a weird feeling deep inside me right now. I haven't had the catastrophy feeling in a long time, like since my dad left the family in 2004. That was over 3 years ago. I don't if that is the feeling I'm having or not. I hope not. I just don't feel right and I just feel like something in my life is just not right. I don't know what's wrong. Maybe venting my feelings will help my internal issues and the feeling will go away. I just keep asking myself 'what's wrong?'
Maybe it's the snow.
I'm a Spaz!
A few days ago I was brilliantly driving down Calvin Crest Road while it was snowing. I have done this many times before with no problem. However that day I wasn't paying attention and I thought to myself 'your going too fast' and as I thought it I began to slide. I very smoothly slid all the way off the road and off the edge. It was one of those slow motion kind of things. I wasn't going fast just too fast for the road at the time.
So I opened my door and sorta fell out down the hill while I was laughing at myself. My response to things like this is 'of course'. I called camp and people came to help me, they even had to use the tractor. Very dramatic.
I try to tell myself that someday I won't get myself into trouble and awkward situations all the time. I hope that my life won't always be this ridiculous. It is fun and entertaining but seriously. I feel like I am always just waiting for the next thing to happen.
Anna the lion tamer
This week I am filling in at the office for everyone who is on vacation. Yesterday Anna(my 30 pound little dog) followed me to work. Not uncommon but usually she goes home after awhile. Yesterday she decided to sit outside the office and "protect" those of us who were here. Around 4:30 everyone else who was working had left for the day and I was sitting at the front desk working. Anna started barking. I thought come on there's no one here. I looked out the window and she was standing near the parking lot barking towards the craft condo. I looked and I didn't see anyone and then I looked down....As I looked at the creature outside I thought to myself 'man that's a big dog'. Then as it crouched forward I realized it was the biggest cat I had ever seen...oh, wait that is because it was a freakin' MOUNTAIN LION!
My tiny little dog is trying to frighten a mountain lion. Good gosh. We all know Anna normally acts like she is a lot bigger than she is but this was just ridiculous. As the kitty cat walked right in front of the office I was only a few feet away inside and so glad I was inside. But I was terrified for Anna. I hit the window and when the kitty saw me it just leisurely turned around and walked away.
My heart was racing and Anna continued to try and protect us all. I guess something like this would happen to me and my dog. I guess Anna has proven that she will chase anything down. I guess we are all very lucky she is here to protect camp. I feel like I should make her a cape or something.
Men whose names start with J
I have realized that I really prefer men singers to female. This was not a conscious decision, it just happened naturally. Anyone who spends more than 10 minutes with me knows that John Mayer gets me through my hard days. My favorite singers are John Mayer, Jack Johnson, Jason Mraz, James Blunt, and so on. I am rediculous. But no matter what I love just chillin at my house at night with a whole bunch of candles glowing while I listen to my J men. Ahhhh.
Don't worry I didn't die
Ok so I know it has been like forever since I posted anything. My life has been crazy and I don't have a computer in my house so I don't get on much.
God has been teaching me a lot lately and fulfilling a lot of needs in my life that I had not anticipated. It's really exciting. God totally answers our questions and desires in ways we could never have anticipated. That's cool.
I am exhausted and I will not make any sense if I continue, so I won't.
Have a good evening everyone.
Attack of the Earth Worms
So this morning I was walking to work along the aim trail. Last night God sent oceans down on us, there was so much water! So things were damp when I came to work. As I walked along I looked down and realized I was killing millions of earth worms. so maybe not millions, but close. Anyways, there were worms all over the trail. It was sooo weird. I have never seen or never noticed this before. AH! Oh, well.
Mountain folk
ok, so up here on the mountain we have a commonfire meeting on sunday nights and staff Bible study on monday mornings. Most of the time these meetings are very orderly and smooth. We tak about all sorts of things. Now every once in awhile a visitor joins us o we add someone to the staff. When this occurs everyone who is a regular to these meetings starts to show the real them. We get absolutely ridiculous. We lose our thoughts and begin to giggle. I don't know how else to describe it. We just get totally silly. It's the funniest thing to experience. People are cracking the funniest jokes, playing games, messing up whatever they are trying to say. We are nuts. This has happened now a few times and we don't know how to control ourselves around people. Maybe we have been together on this mountain too long I don't know. I enjoy these meetings though. The one on sunday brought me to tears. Wow.
